TGIF!

Ahhhh Friday. Why did it take you so long to get here? This has been one of the longest weeks…

Well, I had my first setback. I knew it would happen sooner or later and I know there will be many more. I will tackle each one as they come. I just didn’t expect it to be in the form it was in. I won’t go in to detail except to say, that someone I thought would support me doesn’t. I am extremely hurt by that, but it’s ok. Not everyone understands this form of accountability. Some people are really private and would never dream of starting a blog. I don’t hold it against them at all because honestly I thought I was one of those people. I’m not going to let it get me down. Move onward and upward. Maybe I need to channel Wonder Woman during this journey and deflect all of the bullets fired at me with my powerful gold bracelets.

I plan on having a fantastic weekend with my family. I’ll be dusting off my treadmill too. I probably won’t be able to walk in to work on Monday because my muscles are going to be sore. It’s been at least 6 years since I did any sort of “real” exercise. I’m determined to get through it, push harder than I’ve ever pushed before.

Thanks again to everyone for your support. I love you all and I know you will be waiting for me when I cross that finish line (whenever that will be).

Toodles,

Debbie

Oh Crap What Have I Done!

Did I really do what I think I did, or was it a dream? Nope…I pinched myself REALLY hard and I’m not dreaming. I really posted my weight in a public place for the world to see. What the hell was I thinking? After overcoming the initial terror that I felt last night and even this morning, I calmed myself down and realized that this is for the best. I am a strong person, but this is one thing that has kicked my butt for my entire life. I need this; public accountability. I was so overwhelmed last night by all of the support that I’m receiving. Friends and family alike are reaching out to me. I just started this blog yesterday and already have 2 followers (granted they are my friends, but who cares…its support right?). This is going to be amazing! Not only for me, but maybe I will inspire or touch someone else to do the same thing. My husband looked at me like I was from another planet at first because he knows me and this is not something I normally do. I only share my life with those VERY close to me. My mom asked me last night “what made you decide to do this now” and all I could say to her was “I just had this thought pop in to my head that I needed to do this and I did it”. If that isn’t divine intervention I don’t know what is. I hadn’t even been talking about doing it or thinking about it until that thought randomly came to me. It’s crazy I know, but what can you do? When God speaks, you listen!

I am ready for this and I’m so excited to take all of you along with me. Thank you to everyone for your encouraging words and support. I will do one post a day (with a weight update once per week) so make sure and visit daily (if you can) for an update.

Disclaimer: I am not a funny, witty writer so I can’t always promise that it will be entertaining or even inspiring. I can’t even guarantee that the grammar will always be on target, but I will try. ;-)

As my dear friend Dave always says…Toodles!

Love,

Debbie

My Official Start Weight...YIKES!

I weighed myself this morning and my official start weight is (drum roll please...)

289.5

HOLY CRAP...I can't believe I'm doing this. No turning back now.

Ok...Here I go!

This has got to be the most terrifying thing I've ever done. I have decided that it's time to be accountable for myself and the first step is sharing the gory details with everyone...PUBLICLY. I'm going to post my weight for the world to see and document my progress as I get healthy. I have struggled with my weight for years and I've always got an excuse as to why I've packed on the 150 extra pounds since I married Roy almost 20 years ago. Well excuses be damned. I want my life back!! I'm tired of not participating in my favorite activities based on my physical limitations. I'm tired of the discrimination, comments, the obvious staring and pointing, and my lack of self esteem. I want to start hiking, biking, river rafting, zip lining, parasailing, not having to embarrassingly ask for a seat belt extender on a plane, or sit out while my family rides an amusement park ride that I'm too big to fit on, but most of all I want to love myself. I want to be proud of myself and I want my family to be proud of me. I'm going to be 42 in a few weeks and I'm done with waking up feeling like I'm 80. My body is yelling and groaning and whining at me to (as Susan Powder would say) "STOP THE INSANITY". So the buck stops here...well at least as of January 1st. I'm not going to kid myself and try to start a diet before Christmas. Geez...I'm not stupid! :-)  I will start moving and watching what I eat, but the boot camp begins January 1st. I'm dusting off my treadmill (and hanging all of the clothes that it now holds) and busting out my workout DVD's. So, as I take a deep breath (and try not to hyperventilate) and begin my journey I would love all of you to join me...hold me accountable. Are you in? Good, let's go!